i need some time to make an avenue,

you know,
sometimes, when i do something,
for example strut down the street on my way home from work,
i feel masochistic.
like a guy.
i'd get this vibe and energy, and in my head i will be like,
"I'm THE MAN."

OhMyGod.
i think i know what my problem is.
Am i turning into a butch?!

HAHAHAHA. just kidding la. if i was a butch Earth would spin 360 degrees in less than a second sia. for you dumbtards out there who didnt get my drift, it denotes IMPOSSIBILITY dumbass.

but im serious about the feeling masochistic part. sometimes i think that being a guy is so much better. thus, due to my inner persuasion that meddled with my brain and resulted in a catastrophe to my veins, that is why i am acting that way. but seriously, im still thinking about it.

Why? What is the real reason?