whiney loser. no thats not me.

there's no use for regret. i did badly for my A levels, and i dont wanna repeat cause i have had enough of studying so hard yet ending up with crappy results. honestly, i am traumatized. pay me a million dollars, i will never step foot into a Cambridge examination hall ever again. (i would consider a billion though, haha just kidding). but seriously, i was considering retaking the exams privately a few days ago, two subjects at most, cause i can cope with a C for all atleast. but then, i dont wanna have to go through all that torture yet again. it was horrifying. sometimes, when i think about it, if i had failed in Year One, maybe things would have been different. but then again, this was MY fate. i cant possibly rewind back to the past two years and do everything differently. If i was given such a chance, i would rather they reverse it all to when i was sitting for my O levels instead, working my butt off and then scoring well, so i can go straight into becoming a Malay teacher. or if not, get into the Polytechnic course i had always wanted. Finance issues and whatnot stopped me from doing so, hence i ended up in a JC.

okay, why am i whining about such stuffs? because i went on a JobHunt just now, and in almost every "qualification requirement" section, it states:

1) Diploma/Degree Holder
2) Bilingual in English/Mandarin
3) 2 years experience preferred
4) Driving license.

Heyho, welcome to the real world. I have NONE. Im sad, really. Pondering over such thoughts is making me super stressed out, i swear i have grey hair everywhere. Nahh im just kidding. But seriously.

lotsa love.

heeee. (: