your song

blogging from my phone. awesome day today. ntg much to say, except i have a phrase stuck in my head from ewan.

i hope u dont mind tht i put down in words.

how wonderful life is, now ure in the world."

lotsa love.

Was being so close.

Everything seems beautiful, amazing, spectacular.

I can poop in my hands and stare at it for 2 hrs and yet feel as if i was holding gold in my palms.

I can stare at the sun for as long as you want me to, even if it burns my eyes, yet feel as if it was your eyes im looking into.

Damn, im in love.
Yes, thats what i think im feeling.

What else would equate to whatever im experiencing right now.
Blissfulness extended from each side of the equinox.

lotsa love.

CRAP.

im done with so many TV shows, i dont have any more to watch. CBS havent air all of the episodes of some of the shows im watching, so i will have to wait like a week before i can watch them.

Call me ridiculous, but i have a date with my Lappy&internet every night, just to catch my favourite shows.

Call me insane, cause i even have a detailed schedule on which shows to watch on which night, and which website will be the best to watch em.

Call me a weirdo, cause i check wikipedia every week to know what the next week's episode will be about.

CRAP. i am a TV-show addict.
NO wait, i have MONKISH behavior. if you know what i mean. ;D

Tuesday - CSI
Wednesday - American Idol, 90210, Glee
Thursday - Cougar Town, ANTM, American Idol Results
Friday - The Mentalist, The Vampire Diaries

Insane eh?

lotsa love.

CUTE eh? hahaha.

basking in the ambience.

Hey soul sister, had fun talking abt random shites again, at half-past 11 at night, under our old favourite hangout spot. hahahaha.

Yeah, we are the COOL counter girls. ;D

lotsa love.

senses fail.

i need to start writing a journal again. theres so many things inside of me i wish i can say here in this blog, building up rapidly, yet i cant pen them down cause there are some things i wish for it to be expressed, yet do not want anybody else to read.

yes, i desperately NEED a journal. not want, NEED.

lotsa love.

boredom!

this is what boredom does to people like me and him.

and for the record, IM THE WINNER! lol. *thankyou thankyou* LOL


;DDDDDDDDD

preposterous.

how evil of me to abandon this blog, and be so active on tumblr instead?

thats cause blogger DESERVES it, for screwing up on me all the time. ^^

ok no, im just kidding. but anyways, i have been MIA due to some technical difficulties with regards to my internet connection. i have no idea why it sucks right now, when it has been doing fine for the past two months. i called in to Singtel 5 times, and even wrote them a complain letter, but to no avail cause they insist the problem does not lie with their service, but on my USB stuck instead. but oh whatever. i dont really care haha.

Tomorrow
- job interview & grocery shopping -__-

Wednesday
- hangout w my sisters
- NEW PHONE most prolly hehehehe.

i really hope i can upgrade this time. please oh please.

*angelic music playing in the background*

HAHAHA. ok wtf?

lotsa love. (:

LMFAO.

Lawyer: "What was the first thing your husband said to you when he woke that morning?"

Witness: "He said, 'Where am I, Cathy?'"

Lawyer: "And why did that upset you?"

Witness: "My name is Susan."

HAHAHAHA. EPIC FAIL!

The Scene Aesthetic

For the longest time I thought I'd lost the best of me . But I'll be damned if I quit now and that's for sure. All I ever wanted was for you to look at me, and know I'm all yours. Like the penguins need their wings for deep cold water dives. Like the earth needs the moon to keep it on course. When you touch me, I know there is purpose in my life. Just know I'm all yours.

I'm a mess, I confess that I'm nothing without you. And there is nothing I can do to prove to you, I'm being honest. Now I see, everything; and yes I've known it all along. I was so lost, but I'm back and I finally know now where my heart belongs.

I've been wondering if you could ever realize, that we're growing up so fast, and it's insane. My dear, our hearts have gotten good at pumping cheap new lust into our young veins.

Suddenly I understand everything I couldn't comprehend.

All this time I've spent without you by my side, I dreamt about you. Saw you through the windows in my mind. Carved a home for you deep down inside my chest. And I never want to lose such a big part of me again.

loves.

tasks in my ass.

I'm going out with my bestie tomorrow. ;D

HOWEVER.

Mom told me to check out some phone at the phone store tomorrow.
Mom told me to get some stuffs from the grocery tomorrow.
Mom told me to meet my uncle to get something from him tomorrow.
Mom this, mom that.

IS TOMORROW A DAY FOR ME TO GO OUT WITH MY FRIEND AND ENJOY SOME PEACE, OR RUN HER AN ERRAND LIKE I DO EVERY OTHER DAY?!

sigh. but ohwells, on the brighter note,
she told me to check out the phone tomorrow to survey, cause shes thinking of upgrading mine. ^^
she told me to get some stuffs tomorrow, cause i was the one who complained how our soap is finishing. ^^
she told me to meet my uncle tomorrow cause he would be the one to get the phone for me if i liked it. ^^
she this, she that.

nonetheless, she may not be the perfect mom on earth cause no one is, but i still love her. (:

SEE YOU TOMORROW MONKEY DINA.
vlog time babeh! ;DDD

101st post!

SERIOUSLY?? hahaha.

"hello babe,just a little note to tell you that you are quite pretty and sweet in your worn outfit,your countenance and your portrait. i love you."

HAHAHAHAHA. LAUGH.

goodbye my lover.

MOVEDDDDD.
to panicinhell.tumblr.com
;D

ok no, im not exactly moving. this site is still my favourite ranting site, but i wanna try out tumblr, cause i wanna keep myself updated with my favourite bands and stuffs. and ooh, im on twitter too! haha.

am i nuts? ohwells. (:

lotsa love.

If you could attend any concert, what would it be?

OOH!
Tokio Hotel's. COME TO SG! ;D

Formspring me. Ask me anything

If you could change one thing that happened last year what would it be?

Nothing i suppose?
I am pretty much satisfied with whatever that happened last year.

But my answers may change if you ask me again. ;D

Formspring me. Ask me anything

who are you?

"I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
God, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours." (:

Formspring me. Ask me anything

how awesome is YOUR life, nurulasyikin?

better than urs i suppose? ;D

Formspring me. Ask me anything

Link

Okay, i seriously wanna make my YouTube official, so im not gonna upload my own individual vids cause ive planned with my two best buds to make it OUR youtube channel instead. I sent some messages to some youtuber yesterday, and they said that i might wanna take it slow in the start. So me and dina decided that making video responses would be a better idea first. So yeah, soon people! =D

I must be really mad or something, but i was really inspired by ChrisCrocker, this tranny youtuber. Hes a legend for that Britney Spears vid he did, but i kinda like his style. haha. really cool and dramatic. i have a list of youtubers i love, like whatthebuck and BrittanyLouise. if you dont watch youtube, then you wont know who. haha, but sadly, i only subscribed to Shane cause i think hes the only funny one.

ok, why am i rambling this things down when you prolly wont even know what the fuck im talking about. haha. anywys, today i had a job interview at W____. I dont wanna be sued but seriously, they are such a ripper! 12hrs a day, 6 days a week, salary = 800 a mth, bef CPF cut. SERIOUSLY?! man.

but next week i have two more interviews coming up. i really hope i get the Teaching Aide position. and riverside have yet to called me. sigh, im sad. ): haha.

isit just me, or is Lady Gaga a sadistic bitch who makes videos that involves sex, lesbianity and killing the boyfriend ALL the time?? im just saying. (:

lotsa love.

Vlog

ok, know what? screw the world. im not gonna fucking care how people are gonna judge me, what i say or do doesnt matter to anybody. and im not gonna give a shit about how other people are gonna react to what i say or do for that matter, cause seriously, im done with all the deal of trying to act like you fucking own the world or something.

ive been holding back on myself for these few days, thinking through every single details of whatever that is happening to me, questioning why im the one facing such crap, not other people. and then i asked myself, 'seriously?'. im done with the drama, all the bullshits.

so yeah, i am not gonna fucking care, holding back on vulgarities cause i used to think its uncool for girls to say such words but whatever, i am seriously not gonna give a damn. think what you want, say what you wanna say. I face to the consequences of my own actions, so do you. Own up if you're daring enough, but nahh, you are just one pussy to actually do something as bold as that, cause behind those swagger, i seriously fucking know that you have no guts. Face it, dude. You are just not up for reality.

I am done with my first Vlog, still unsure whether i wanna put it up on youtube. After editing and stuffs, i think its really cool and funny. It features me and my little bro, and it's called bubble-gummylicious. I know, ridiculous name, but ohwells, im still contemplating though. Once again, i wanna emphasize, no, i am not trying to be anybody. But like shanedawson, ive always had a dream. And that was to go to Hollywood. If you are my true friend, you would know, cause like other girls, i read tabloid mags every single fucking day, but unlike them, i literally read every single details in the mag and cut out pieces of information i think is cool, awesome and dope. Pretty creepy and insane i should say. I think i should be a paparazzi, haha. But what can i scoop about in singapore? Jack Neo and his horny bitches? Haha, oops. ;p

Anyways, off topic but yeah my Vlog. Im thinking of doing more like a Video Journal, which also features my crazy awesome friends. And not many people know, but i do video responses on youtube, haha. But then after a day or two, i delete it for fear somebody i know would watch it. -___- Welcome to my sad lifestory! haha. But from today onwards, im not gonna delete anything anymore. Cause, like i said, im done trying to buy my way into things. (:

lotsa love.
and you are a whore if you find my interest in Vlogging ridiculous. (: Just kidding! :DDD

okay, i know i wanted to be MIA haha, but i REALLY had to share this.
WATCH IT SERIOUSLY.



HILARIOUS! i love him! <3>

hello hello baby you call i cant hear a thing.

came across some few things which totally upsetted me. not sharing with anybody, anywhere.

i need some time to reflect on myself, the people around me.

cause maybe, just maybe, ive been trying to please people too much, that i didnt realise how badly it is affecting me. but now i have.

sometimes, you dont realise how bad some things are, until you come face to face with it, one on one.

goodbye world, MIA for god knows how long.
yes, you wont hear from me people. i promise you that. not being emo u fker, but like i said, i owe myself a better treatment, big time.

El Amor Es Ciago.

I WANNA LEARN SPANISH.

love how beautiful the language is. (:

50 random questions thanks to boredom

1. What is your best friend's Mom's name? HAHA. i forgot. ;p

2. Where is the weirdest place you have a mole? on the tip of my right index finger.

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? I wont say the name, but heh he thought me maths in secondary school. ;D

4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater? Nope. Please only idiots does that.

5. What body part do you wash first? My hands.

6. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms? Uhh no? For what sia!

7. What's the strangest talent you have? I can sleep while sitting like a frog but with my head on the pillow. hard to explain in words but u get my drift.

8. Do you have an innie or an outtie? Innie.

9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles? Sour cream and onion.

10. Have you ever been tied up? Do you want to be? Yes, once, while playing a stupid game of police and thief. Had to use a scissors to remove it cause they tied a dead-knot. -__-

11. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for? For yelling at my mother to defend myself. I cant help it, my teenage hormones always gets the best of me. ;D
 

12. Do you parallel park or drive around the block? I cant even drive! haha.

13. Have you ever had two dates in one night? I don't think I've had two dates in one month!

14. How many times have you been cussed out? Rarely. Actually, i dont remember being cussed out.

15. Which shoe do you put on first? The right one.

17. Have you ever been to a gay bar? No, ive never been to any bar at all. HAHA.

18. Girls-- the strongest creature cause we can bleed for five days straight, and never die. (:

19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common? They are artistically talented.

20. Did you French kiss before you were 16? HAHA. no. ;p

21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? No.

22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep? someone, not telling you who!

23. Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you? Yes.

24. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash? I'd rather not wash my bath towel, but I do think either one of those would result in some nastiness of the worst kind. Who came up with that question?

25. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable? nope, they are really good at hiding private things.

26. What was your childhood nickname? Nuyul. haha, wtf.

27. When is the last time you played the air guitar?Last year with my cousin.

28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room? Never been in one.

29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving? I cant driveeeee.

30. Have you ever bitten your toenails? No, eww!

31. How do you eat your cookie? depends. i like crushed cookies tho. if i were to ever date a guy and he brings me crushed cookie on our first date, i would totally kiss him! hahaha, NOT. -___-

32. When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt? I have never worked out in a gym intensely, the worse i'd go for is the treadmill.

33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others. I sing, and i like prancing infront of the mirror. 

36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk? never tried, and never intended to.

37. Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?only a psycho does that.

38. How often do you clean out your ears? twice a week.

39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper? i dont use them.

40. About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie? O.o.

41. Do you have any strange phobias? DOGS and cockroaches.

42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? tissue.

43. What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar? NA.

44. Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted? Nope, I have no regrets about any action, decision, or behavior I've ever done.

45. Have you ever called your love interest by an ex's name? Nope.

46. Have you caught a guy/girl farting while on a date? Nope.

47. Have you ever played naked Twister? I've never played Twister.

48. Have you ever been drunk at work? I've never been drunk.

49. Have you ever found your date's/lover's brother or sister more attractive? Nope.

50. Do you want to bring sexy back? -___-"

cat in the hat.

 OMG, Fahmi my first policeman friend owns a really frigging cute cat la! 

hahahahaha.

busy week, non-stop interviews coming my way. Finally, phone calls. after so long. haha. 

lotsa love.

it feels different. 

its changing.

ZOUK OUT @ GEYLANG!

man 

something is definitely wrong with me

i added all the teachers i know in Facebook.

hahaha.

weird ass syikin.

and i beg to differ what dina begged to differ to what i begged to differ earlier.

if im uncool, then dont you find it pitiful that u are hanging arnd me? 

that makes two of us darl. ;D

i beg to differ dina malyana
IM A COOL KID.

LOL.

and im feeling GOOD.

nothing much to say today, but hell, this got me superbly disgusted.
like seriously? do you share such stuffs online. Jeez.

fucked up dude, who has a really pretty girlfriend. funny.

lotsa love.

and really, i meant what i said. (:

April's Fool.

Today is April's Fool, i just remembered after Dina told me about her prank on someone which she claimed to be a successful one. Haha. I used to love playing pranks on people, being hated at for my absurd indulgence and hence have stopped doing such stuffs on people. Maybe some times, i still do so in my small little clique, especially on Atika. ;p but i am still wondering why is April such a special month, to consider someone a fool? Like as if every other day people arent making fools of themselves on a daily basis.

Anyways, yesterday, after so damn long, i went out with Dina. Had alot of fun shopping at Bugis, got myself this really cool jacket. In love with it.

And for the record, two complete strangers asked whether we were sisters. It is just weird, cause the both of us always tend to dress up the same way, like as though we planned to wear something similar. Hilarious.

Dina got herself a guitar. And ohmygod, i just realised that we had the SAME guitar. The left one is mine, and the right one in Dina's hands is obviously hers. See the similarities? W-E-I-R-D. :]

also, today i decided to so some spring cleaning. Mopped my living room, and clean up my messy bedroom. Gave my brother's desk a little revamp. I absolutely love my room. 

There it is. But my most favourite part of my room is this little collage i had on the wall. Its a collection of all my favourite moments, pictures etc. Cool shites. (: Maddd Loves! 

Anyways, i downloaded this really cool Camera Studio, which allows me to record videos on my webcam. I am planning to do a video-blog. Pretty insane, and no i am not trying to be anybody. But i was pretty inspired by this dude called Charlie, a you-tuber who is an Englishman, and has an amazing video-blog. I was also inspired to do this shit cause after posting Adam lambert's videos on my youtube page, people are actually subscribing to me. Ok, no actually only two. but i have 4000 viewers in total. Crazy! So, yeah who knows, Shane Dawson started out like real crappy but look at him now, a damn successful you-tuber. 

Oh crap, YouTube just removed a Video of Glee i posted. They claim it to be copyright infringed. What the Hell??

lotsa love. ;D