Anger is one letter short of danger.

PISSED OFF AS HELL.
today has got to be the most suay-est day of all, in my entire life.
crazy customer, crazy machines, crazy me.
i am not gonna elaborate, but hell, i feel like punching someone right now.

lucky today i had my two bestest peeps pick me up from work, where we hung out at our usual hot spots, chatting about random stuffs and catching up all the way till midnight.

DAMN. is it bad that i am feeling super grateful that i just quit my current job and is moving on to another one in 24hrs?

NO i dont think so. ;D

goodbye army boy, you will be missed. ):

lotsa love.

NASTY.

I LOVE SHOPPING LIKE MAD, CAN?
hahahaha. today was pretty intense, but i managed to get myself a black tee and grey kimono dress plus one black formal blazer. love shopping when you have got money. but dang, so little ah. lols. bt its kay, im cool. next month i hope i get more $$ woohoo! lols.

anyways, now im back home, im like very the bored. i have nothing to do, and man im feeling stupid. from where im sitting, i can see an old indian guy at the window digging his nose real intensely hahaha. okay im bored. and im writing crap wtf. im blogging for the sake of updating, and passing time.

im feeling random. i wanna go Johor Bahru. haha.

bye.

i'm here for your entertainment.

OHMYGOD.
my heart is beating super damn fast. like some train or what.
and i know its not cause im nervous or whatever. (or super sick for that matter, altho i have been coughing non-stop since morning)
it must be because i saw the most charming person i have ever seen today.
with those bushy eyebrows and blue natural eyes, fair skin and broad shoulders, sweet smile and super nice accent,

WHAT COULD POSSIBLY BE A MINUS IN THIS GUY?

except for the fact that he is foreigner.
a Philippines guy.
but ohmygod, i was super intrigued by this one dude, i even gave him the wrong change.
hahahahaha.

hope he drops by on sunday! (:

From New York to LA getting high rock n' rollin

But if I had you, that would be the only thing that i would ever need
Yeah if I had you, then money fame and fortune never could compete
If I had you, life would be a party it'd be ecstasy
If I had you
You you you you you
If I had you

Whos that you? (:

FINE.

WE ARE COOL KIDS. lol.

(Nigga you still playing sega?) I'm cooler then that guy
(No red monkeys with the bapesters?) I'm cooler then that guy
(What you riding on that bike for?) I'm cooler then that guy
(does that belt say star wars?) I'm cooler then that guy
(Why your jeans ain't sagging?) I'm cooler then that guy
(You ain't smoking on the dro cause?) I'm cooler then that guy
(Where your stunna shades at dog?) I'm cooler then that guy
(Man ya'll niggas ain't got no?) I'm cooler then those guys

(:

oh, is it me you're looking for?

HORRIFIC NEWS.

my second brother will be posted to Brunei Darussalam for his Overseas National Service Posting for one whole bloody year. He will be gone on 1st June 2010. Not that anyone of you would care cause its my brother not yours haha, but ohwells.

Stupid or what sia his enciks, next week going, tell him only a week in advance. I have to help my mom rush through some of the preparations this week then. Thank God i work only three days this week, i can use the rest of the days to help in his preparation. Kenduri Doa Selamat and all. Thursday, gonna head down to West Mall with him to get some Army goods. Mom cant follow since shes not very well these days. So i have to overtake that responsibility. Friday, bank to settle some of his banking issues. Sunday, final family gathering i guess. That leaves me with tomorrow and Saturday only to be free. Since im working on Wednesday, Friday and Sunday.

Honestly, the thought of him leaving us, isnt as intolerable as i thought it would be. I guess its cause we are used to him being in Camp for a week and at home only at the weekends. but the thought of him gone for one whole bloody year is just.. plain weird. Cause my family have always been together, in one piece. One gone feels just kinky. i dont know, maybe its just me.

So yeah, i will only be free on Sunday. Anyone up for town? i need to shoopppppp. ;p

Was reading Dina's blog about how she thinks her life is pathetic. Haha. I find it pretty amusing actually, cause all this time i had been thinking about the same thing too.

I had been wondering how my life would have been if i had not go through my life like that in the past 4 years in secondary school. Why Secondary school? come on, like you dont know. Sec Sch is like the time when we all evolve into someone, where the environment plays a major situation. Like how Pikachu evolves into Raichu when you love it so much, but becomes a bitch if you dont wanna talk to it everyday, or dont use it for training. (yellow gameboy version) ok i know wtf but yeah you get my drift.

I think i have always been protected amidst my friends and family, and i listen to advises like some goody-two shoes. I dont club, drink or smoke. I have a curfew (till now), i cant go out w/o permission and "grounding" is enforced when i break the 9868384687634 rules. yeah. i hang out only at places suitable for kids as well, and my parents are control-freaks. Sorry i have to say this, but i dont think i have cool friends. Maybe cause im not cool also (haha Dina you can laugh) thus the not-cool clique. And my life has always been planned and perfectly normal. No such things as my brother having a shotgun wedding, or my father remarrying, that kind of intolerable bullshits. All FINE. not that im asking for anything like that to happen, but everything is too GOOD in my life. i want some bad-ass action, i dont know like what, maybe like im in some movie or something. hahaha, drama-mama feelings.

but yeah, i mean what i said. all of the above.

Can SOMEONE brighten up my life right now? i dont think my life is pathetic. i think its just a little screwed up.

lotsa love.

mommy's so old!

HAPPY ADVANCED 91st 19th BIRTHDAY MOMMY MAE! hope you have a blast tomorrow aights!

had a fun day today. interview in the morning, lepak "art" session at Dina's crib, afternoon nap after SO long, and then Fushan Garden getaway for Mae's birthday celebration. it was AWESOME!

lotsa love.

If i had you.

i thought i, out of so many people out there, would be awesome when it comes to differentiating between a Mat and a normal guy. (Yeah, mats are abnormal. Hello, huge brain, floating cap, retarded dance moves, ring a bell?) You know what they say about haters. haha.

but hell i was wrong. I decided to play a a game with an online friend on MSN. you know how tagged has this whole "Meet Me" thingy? where u see a picture of someone, and click whether you think you want that person to be your friend or something? i know, pretty retarded, and very damaging to one's self-esteem. haha. well, first impression REALLY matters. so yeah, we decided to play a game, where we will look at the pics, and then guess whether they are Mats, and then go view their whole profile, and determine whether they are. How can we tell?

1) EeeF DeY TaIp Lyk Tizx TheN yeaH Euuu GeT MaI DrEeFF. LOL
2) Floating Caps EVERYWHERE of different colour and patterns.
3) That Orange-hair hairdo plus ugly tatoos
4) The Generic Music Playlist: Hip-Hop and FREAKING trance/techno/tektonek. (whatever is that crap)
5) The type of friends they have.

Out of 20 guys, i got only 3 right! How saddening. I guess i have either lost my touch since all i do these days are eat, sleep, work, repeat, or im not a real mat-hater afterall. hahaha.

k i sound so crappy. and i have no bloody idea why i woke up so early in the morning.

lotsa love.

dream a little dream of me

this week is the last week of all the good shows on CW. ): 90210, the mentalist. last week was cougar town's and vampire diaries'. and next week will be glee's last. man. i will be as bored as hell every wednesday night onwards. darn it. ):

anyways, i am SUPER bored.
i feel super retarded right now, i have no idea why.

you know what i wanna do right now? honest from the heart?

i wanna head down to the beach, walk down it, enjoying the night breeze.
after that, sitting down at the edges of the huge boulder, staring at the night sky, my head on someone's shoulder and humming some random show tune together.
when i fall asleep, my body will be wrapped with an afghan, and arms will be around them.

Hahahaha, mushy much? too much TV i guess. ;p

Well i learnt something on Glee today.
Crushed dreams may seem inevitable, but atleast you know you tried. When a star dies down, they dont fade away. They become a black hole and absorbs thing in the universe. Thats what we all are. STARS. (man, innova should use this quote since they love STARS so much. haha)

And also i got a funny skit i got from my favourite antagonist on glee, SUE!

Bryan: "Sue, you're an impressive woman. I can't tell you how much you turn me on right now. You ever heard of the term 'anger sex'?"
Sue: "The only kind I know, Bryan."
...
Bryan: "Should I lock the door?"
Sue: "No. I've got a secret room upstairs ... like Letterman."

hahaha funny sia. <3

and it all came crashing down on me.

if you like a person, SAY IT dumb ass.

girls should not be the one to do that in my opinion, cause lets face it. Guys ALWAYS claim to have the power over us. undermining every thing we women do. feeling so overrated all the time. we are the WEAKER sex, or so you think. but hey, lets stick to the basics. where have all the glory of being a knight in shining armor all go to? flushed down the toilet bowl i assume.

YEAH guys will reason back that this is the 21st century and girls and guys are alike. Well, if that is true than why the gender discrimination in other areas? why the partial treatment to us girls? i am not a sexist, but i think the world is REALLY unfair.

hahaha, man. i am having flashback to my General Paper days!

lotsa love.

I'll never be the same, if we ever meet again.

I HATE MY HAIR.
hideous, thanks to stupid hairdresser who cut my fringe damn fucking short. man. now everyday i have to hide my hair my wearing a hairband. i dont like, cause i get headaches from it being too tight. ):

you be mine again.

kids call me "aunty", guys younger than me try to flirt, assuming im their age. "you look like a 16 year old". yeah i get that alot. and guys my age or older, just intimidate me at times, with their crazy tattoos and multiple peircings.

and i realise one thing today. i always fail miserably when i try to get out of my shell and flirt. HAHAHAHA. i either 1) embarass myself, 2) embarass myself, 3) embarass myself. NONSTOP HITS. you know how i will embarass myself? say the wrong things, blink damn fast like a maniac, and my hands will shake uncontrollably and it will be so freaking obvious. well, maybe they may think it was just the crazy aircon at my workplace, which was super cold. heh.

lotsa love.

HEA(RT)LESS!

this morning, me and my lil bro went out and we saw something disgusting.

yupp. gross.

that aside, i love my phone's camera! look how artistic it seems! hahaha. ok shuddup. (:

third post for the day! nuts. goodnight earthlings.

BME pain olympics: Final Round

On Shane Dawson's instigation, i decided to watch the BME Pain Olympics Video. I couldnt find it anywhere though. Im sad cause that video must be that sick cause Brian, Joe Roger's (Fear Factor) friend was so disgusted by it. For those who had never heard of it, here is a summary of it.

In the video, two men are seen performing genital self-mutilation set to the song "Livin' Like a Zombie" by Mortification. The original video, hosted on BMEzine, displays a message at the end confirming it is fake, however most of the other versions of the video on other websites do not have that message at the end. According to Shannon Larratt, the creator of the video, the two "competitors" (who are actually the same person) used prosthetic makeup and the video contains no actual body modification.

Okay, it may be fake, but as seen from the crazy youtuber's reaction it must be that mad gross and disturbing. Oooh, i have seen the 2 girls one cup video however. Okay, its really gross. Its a video of two lesbians, eating SHIT together. yeap, they shit out on the spot, and chew on it together. It was gross. and then one of them pukes while the other ate it. Man, i almost stopped watching but come on, im no pussy. haha. here is the summary.

The trailer features two women conducting themselves in fetishistic intimate relations, including defecating into a cup, taking turns ostensibly consuming the excrement, and regurgitating it into each other's mouths.

it contains a little pornographic material, the starting that is, cause they were kissing and stuffs, but the defecating part was just nasty. yucks.

here is the link. WARNING. not for the weak-hearted, or those below 18. (:

http://www.flurl.com/video/5496822_comments.htm

Chris brown WAS an ass for beating up Rihanna. it wasnt his call at all. people are saying how Rihanna deserved it and all that shit. I feel like punching their faces and say they are the ones who deserves it. no matter how much of an asshole we women can be, violence is a no-no.

but i pity chris brown now. he is my favourite black singer apart from usher. so yeah, i dont support his ridiculous action, but he has repented and he deserves a second chance i guess? unless he repeats his mistake again, i will still support him nonetheless.

why the topic? i dont know. i kinda miss him. ):

whiney loser. no thats not me.

there's no use for regret. i did badly for my A levels, and i dont wanna repeat cause i have had enough of studying so hard yet ending up with crappy results. honestly, i am traumatized. pay me a million dollars, i will never step foot into a Cambridge examination hall ever again. (i would consider a billion though, haha just kidding). but seriously, i was considering retaking the exams privately a few days ago, two subjects at most, cause i can cope with a C for all atleast. but then, i dont wanna have to go through all that torture yet again. it was horrifying. sometimes, when i think about it, if i had failed in Year One, maybe things would have been different. but then again, this was MY fate. i cant possibly rewind back to the past two years and do everything differently. If i was given such a chance, i would rather they reverse it all to when i was sitting for my O levels instead, working my butt off and then scoring well, so i can go straight into becoming a Malay teacher. or if not, get into the Polytechnic course i had always wanted. Finance issues and whatnot stopped me from doing so, hence i ended up in a JC.

okay, why am i whining about such stuffs? because i went on a JobHunt just now, and in almost every "qualification requirement" section, it states:

1) Diploma/Degree Holder
2) Bilingual in English/Mandarin
3) 2 years experience preferred
4) Driving license.

Heyho, welcome to the real world. I have NONE. Im sad, really. Pondering over such thoughts is making me super stressed out, i swear i have grey hair everywhere. Nahh im just kidding. But seriously.

lotsa love.

heeee. (:

hell, that was HOT.

who doesnt love john mayer?

WOO sexay. i like. hahaha.

im bored. really really bored.
):

a woman's heart

Me and my mother was watching a movie called "A Woman's Heart". Suddenly.

Me: Ma, is that dude's fly undone?! (chuckles)
Mother: Yupp. (laughs along)

5 seconds later..

Mother: OHHHH so you were looking at the CROTCH area! caught you in action! naughty eh..
Me: What?! No.. it was so obvious, mama.

(i was thinking of a rebuttal to defend myself)

Me: But then again, YOU WERE LOOKING AT IT TOO RIGHT! hahahaha. cause if not it would have taken you longer to answer when i asked you about it. HAHA! caught you in action too. hehehe.

like mother like daughter.
but honestly, i WASNT looking at his crotch. it was so damn obvious SERIOUSLY. hahaha.

happy mother's day.

World's Best Friend Week.

If I happened to show up on your door step crying,
Would you care?

If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened,
Would you come?

If I had one day left,
to live my life;
Would you be part of that last day?

If I needed a shoulder
to cry on,
Would you give me yours?

Do you know what the relationship is between your two eyes?

They blink together, they move together,
They cry together, they see things together, and they sleep together,
But they never see each other;

.. that's what friendship is.

Your aspiration is your motivation, your motivation is your belief, your
belief is your peace, your peace is your target, your target is heaven, and
life is like hardcore torture without it.

i need some time to make an avenue,

you know,
sometimes, when i do something,
for example strut down the street on my way home from work,
i feel masochistic.
like a guy.
i'd get this vibe and energy, and in my head i will be like,
"I'm THE MAN."

OhMyGod.
i think i know what my problem is.
Am i turning into a butch?!

HAHAHAHA. just kidding la. if i was a butch Earth would spin 360 degrees in less than a second sia. for you dumbtards out there who didnt get my drift, it denotes IMPOSSIBILITY dumbass.

but im serious about the feeling masochistic part. sometimes i think that being a guy is so much better. thus, due to my inner persuasion that meddled with my brain and resulted in a catastrophe to my veins, that is why i am acting that way. but seriously, im still thinking about it.

Why? What is the real reason?

waking up to find you looking at me.

i got tired of looking for a blogskin, halfway through i gave up and decided to stick to the basics. and im loving it. ;D

anyhooooos, things have been pretty much stagnant around me. nothing much happened lately, no surprises or anything to snack my already so boring life. however, work has been keeping me pretty much occupied most of the time. and i just added a new gadget into my life. my samsung omniapro phone that is, the one i blogged about previously. nothing fanciful about the phone actually, but the qwerty keyboard and classy look is what that perks it up.

okay, i have been blogging pretty mushy stuffs like in my few latest posts. people are assuming im in love or something. i BETTER clear things up.

No. i am NOT in love. i have better things to look forward to. okay no kidding. but seriously, if i were in love, the first person i would tell are you people. so NO. i like blogging about sensitive lyrics i hear in some of the music i listen to. some too touchy that i find it hard to decipher myself, hence i blog it in. half of the time, they may be exactly what i am feeling at that particular moment, but mostly, they are just me being sentimental. no pun intended.

anyways, dina once asked me a question, which i think is the right moment for me to answer.

WHO ARE YOU?

well i have decided to answer it a statement a post. for today's it will be,

I am the unpredictable girl who goes from one mood to another, depending on the situation. Always trying to be the ice-breaker, never once a heart-breaker. (:

faygod.

Hey Hey You You. whats cracking bitchesss?

ok NO, what the hell is wrong with me? late night crankiness i guess. haha.
anyways, awesome dream last night. long tiring dream. ;p im not gonna elaborate here, closest peeps would have known. haha. im actually just bored, which is why im practically wasting a space on my blog here, but i'll delete it soon. i think.

man, i love kaseemg. hahaha. he may look like a faggot, but hell, guys with thick-rimmed glasses and that geeky smile, just turns me on. hehehohohaha.

OKAY seriously, i'd better go to bed, before i start writing more crap. i need a good night rest.

lotsa love.

man, what a HOT day.

one day, we need a little bit of love.

just got back home, tired as hell. So many problems crop up today. Handphone went nuts, lady in charge of the shift before mine made a mistake in her money calculations and i panicked for no reason when my money didnt tally.

but one thing got me cracking real badly today.

Man: Hey can i get a pack of ciggarettes?
Me: Which one?
Man: Marlboro Menthol
Me: Here you go Sir. But before that, IC please?
Man: IC?! you want my children's ezlink?

HAHAHA. as if i wasnt paiseh enough, he actually open his wallet and showed me pics of his kids. Well hello, he looked so young! like 17 like that, need to confirm what. and then...

Me: Oh okay so sorry dude! haha. i just need to reconfirm.
Man: Well, im already a dad, if that is what you were wondering. A young dad, you see.
Me: Ahh, i see. No wonder. Thought you 17 haha.
Man: Haha, young dad. *clears throat* young HANDSOME dad. *cheeky smile*
Me: Hmmmm, well.... (continue counting money)

Laugh my fucking ass off. Back at ya! His expression after that was PRICELESS. like come on, ok he was a cute guy. But when you are already a DAD, claiming you are handsome to a girl like me is like saying a piece of shit is gold. seriously. i mean, you can keep saying that to yourself, or your wife, who cares, but to a girl like me? man, are you trying to flirt? NOT WORKING.

anyways, i like working with Azri's mother. She's the most sporting aunty ever, we talked about all our favourite artistes, gossip about some customers, and hell yeah shes a fan of American idol too. hahaha. awesome.

ok, need to sleep. nights!

lotsa love.

hey Mister, you are like my dinner. (: